never changes

i nearly finished this post, & then bam. the bad bam.
like my ish just all disappeared bam. -___-

& as i was speaking on conquering, i suddenly just felt conquered.
but here's where i can apply the good. the divine.
that things just don't happen,
there is always a reason,
& whether good or bad, you can prevail within it.

so no more thinking I'm useless to the creator who created me,
or that i am destined to fail due to my own shortcomings.
it's over for that mediocre thinking.
because honestly, you weren't designed that way.
that's not your natural nature.
& you should get hostile when a feeling arises that attempts to convince you of
that.

this is for you, you who can relate to me.
& I'm telling you, ohh, i feel it boo.
I've been there. parts of me still are.
but our feelings are not our friends.

but you can only gain resistance by enduring.
& by enduring you develop. it's inevitable.

cold world.
& even though the rain won't stop,
the sun will still always shine.

we learn to endure by knowing the one who made us to be more than conquerors,
the one who designed you and had you in mind before the formation of the earth,
there is nothing you can tell Him that He doesn't already know.
& nothing that can happen that can keep His original plan for you, from
prevailing.
except you. free will.

the Word of God is alive.
it awakens power within you.
puts the world under your feet.
because it gives you the truth, :)

we must protect our thoughts, our feelings.
keep them from the negative.
retain knowledge, making it easier to endure & eventually conquer.

The world is shifty, shapeless, & snakey.
God never changes.
His divine plan for you never expires.
& it endures. everything.
because your maker boo, he designed you to be as he is. :)

you vs. them

my perspective is changing. my desire. with people.
I love people. the things theyre capable of. the creation God designed.
our souls that fill us are a beautiful thing. divine design.
(while my heart can't fuel anything that isn't the truth, I have come to live peacefully in this war.
no judgements, no hate.
but my eyes belong to the Lord, & he monitors my hearing.
so I shall see things as they are, not as I wish they could be.
and I apply Gods way. because that is the only way.

so while my friends are still my friends.
either for ME, they are not the same,
or what friends are FOR, is not the same.
I am my own, only in control of my own.
my relationship with God, my progress,
it is only my own.
my spirit cannot dwell in another person,
another can not share what God is to me,
Except one.

being my whole,
my all,
...this is important. when it comes to 'friends' at least.
because if we dont share what the biggest most important thing is to me,
then how much can we really share.

my immediate reaction is to separate,
unoffensively.
...but this isn't about the physical situation,
but how I cope internally to a massive revelation.
something so significant previously, basically
changes immediately.

is this what he was put here for.
is he the motivation to separate from the storm.
a companion for the trial.
because he's the one person God gave me,
so bluntly, ...perfectly.
God flows through him, endlessly,
pouring directly & indirectly,
revelations, directions, obedience.
teaching of faith, patience,  & dedication.
a lesson in sacrifice.

as well as my prosperity, my abundance,
my grace & my favor.

because we share the same spirit,
the one connected to our Father.
& in us we believe the same things,
we learn the same things,
we're receiving the same things.

pre-designed.
our entire existence,
our entire relationship.

but he takes up a lot of space,
not leaving room for anyone who cannot meet the standard.
so them, they are at a distance,
but still seen with the Lord's eyes.

sometimes i get this feeling. to slow down. not to get too much done, to make sure you have something to do tomorrow. or in the days to come. whichever.
but isnt that crazy. it's a total oxy-moron. complete redundant way of thinking. yet, my mind will comprehend it as practical. acceptable obviously. o_O

this ish gots to go. im kicking that concept out the door. to the birds. kick rocks. there is never too much to know. too much to get done.
( now i do believe in a such thing as obsessed.
but that's not where i am right now. this is personal, not general. completely tailored to describe what im going through. don't feel crazy if you cant relate )

there's always a reason your in the moment your in. whether that reason or that moment is good or bad, there is one. so by making a habit of always doing the right thing. the God thing. the thing your spirit leads you to, your reasons are always divine, therefor so is your moment.
i always want divine moments.

because really, it's just a constant mind battle.

moments where your always fulfilled. full of joy. moments where you completely trust in your maker; knowing what he has done for you, and all that he plans to. complete regard of the love always there for you. the complete love. the love that considers your hopes and your dreams. your emotions and your family. your wants & your needs.
it gets you remembering; this moment is a divine one.

& you can go through boring jobs, because your working on something better, & God can always use this in the mean time. so really, i'm never missing out. nothing can prevent God. & that something better, it's not simply a desire, but a conquered goal. because that complete love always there for you, includes the victory. :)

you ma'am have already won.
act like it.
amen. :)

the end frm the beginning. :)

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be


calling the end from the beginning. the person i am. 
nothing in september. a lot happening. a lot of God working. A LOT of prophesy. :)
so this isnt simply to the person i wish i could be. 
but to this person i am. the person currently manifesting through me. 
God bless September, the month of moving faith, <3

stephiesosexy blog, Drawing: Tia frm Hollow Heart Gallery

a warrior of God. 
by works and by example. 
a living testimony of the abundant life. 
the life God thought and brought forth since the beginning of the creation. 
you are blessed. coming in & going out. 
you succeed in all you put your hands to, 
and continue to move as the Spirit of God leads you. 


nothing like this world. 
your entire life divine. 
your husband, & your children. <3
your career & your friends.
your experiences, your possessions. 


you create to inspire. 
as a servant first, 
then as a co-heir. 
to the kingdom that cannot be shaken. 


you take risk, and push limits.
believe in the impossible.
consistently increasing the measure of faith. 


with no spirit of fear, 
darkness abandons you, leaving you in grace. 
under the wing is where your entire existence resides. 


no time to waste. every second is worship.
you will experience all good things.
and endure the lessons.
learning, growing, saving!


your peace be multiplied, 
your heart fulfilled.
as your everlasting joy & hope live in the one who made you! :)

Day 30 - Letter: your reflection

...when i talk to myself,
there is more than just me.
the spirit within me is alive
& through him protrudes the Word of God.
Effect via the Divine Cause :)

my new members balloon from church :)

Letter 30 - Your Reflection.

'who are you now? what direction is your heart leading you?
better question?
what is it you desire?
where do you want your heart to be?
what is your destination?
& what path do you wish to take?

you always have a choice,
but not without a fight.
This is a mandatory war & strategy is required for survival.
where shall your help come from? have you found a better supplier?

your not new to this fight, but your perception has changed.
the enemy has been revealed.
& while his moves cant be predicted
his attacks lack creativity.

but sometimes you forget
who your fighting for!

this is not a self-induced battle,
..one that you choose
the war is inevitable, (but you will certainly reap the rewards)
but the victory has already been taken.
Now your faith must be proven.

There is only one option,
based on the ultimate desires of your heart.
to serve the one who has placed you first.
delivered you from the schemes of the one looking to detroy you.
who's hate is based on principle, no previous beef established.

but you are all too familiar with the other side.
remember.
you use to mingle through the fence.
selling yourself for a quick fix.
forsaking the one who has given the win.

your lack of loyolty
was damaging though,
& although you will win,
you have given room for the battle
to be much more demanding.
but only for the sake of your faith.

"Stay loyal to your soil, &
I will take care of the rest.
You will slip up, but ALWAYS aim
for perfection in me.
Remind yourself, that that is your one TRUE
desire. To find perfection in My eyes.

I will forever keep you,
always forgive you
& you will stay abundantly blessed.
Walk against the odds, for it is I who set those doors
in front of you. So that it will be,
only I who makes you through.
Your success will only come through me
& you will know and prove to be an example of what I desire."
amen'