oh. hello patience. :)

these delay's & hiatus' aren't any good.
we get so accustomed to being away,
we forget how to be here.

i feel that way about so many things right now.
God, writing, munchkin, besties. lol.
but being bitter isn't a good feeling,
and neither is guilty.
how then, do you approach it?
how do you come back like you never left?!

i'm moving.
sometimes backwards,
left, right,
but mostly forward.
& to me, what more can i ask.

i wish i was better.
i wish i had all the right answers.
i wish i knew where a decision would lead me, before i make it.
but i'm not, and i don't.
i'm just here, a little better everyday.
& that makes my heart happy.

more than anything,
i'm learning how to get along with 'patience'.
so much so, that we're becoming good friends.
because my life is completely humbling. lol.
all the time.  o_0
& i've realized it's not so much about what i can do for myself.
but what i will believe, and let God do through me.

so i'm here.
& all of this amazing substance in my heart,
leads me to believe,
that God had and has amazing plans for me.
so that regardless of where i'm at,
& what my situation or circumstances are like,
i'll never be without, i'll never be short,
because God is all i ever really had and all i will ever have.

in Jesus name, amen. :)