ConfessionSessionSeries : the finale reflection

I started confession session like a month & a few days ago.
i finished. did all 40 confessions, 2/day, for 20 days. :)
back to back. no biggie.
a reasonable service.
but i had no finale. not yet, until now. lol

it was important for me to present a finish,
not directly for you, but, in the sense that,
i really needed it too. a time to reflect,
because for me, this is just as much as a learning experience.
as i'm writing it, i'm living it, trying, trying, trying, over & over.

& recently what has stood out to me the most,
'...is that it's never too late'
getting caught up in the guilt, the stress, the distress,
the desire to give-in, ...can sometimes over take us to the point,
that we feel soo undeserving, so much so it dulls our wills to even try.
but no. more than ever. no matter how unnatural or illogical it might feel,
i know it is worth it to give effort, to put forth,
even if i didn't, just a moment before,
if i feel i can now, just do it.
..... all of that's kind of broad, i know, but it is a generalization of how my
perspective & effort are evolving.
hey, even this post.
it's late.
my series ended Tuesday i think.
i had a deadline by Friday, mid-day.
it's currently Sat afternoon. ;)
just keep going. & there is reason to remain happy about it.
excited, expectant, knowing that your spirit & heart is real.
& that God is your spirit's & life's overseer. :)

confessions help me keep that. always. at the forefront of my mind.
they help keep my spirit lively, receptive & bold.
they keep away guilt, shame and fear,
& they are constantly refilling me on hope, love & joy, to give...

because of that significance,
it was inevitable that i share,
eventually. lol.
it's so powerful, so overwhelmingly real,
& for everyone.
fueled by the Origin of Love, for you!
there are so many things we don't yet understand,
& learning all of that is a process.
but initially; know that you're loved,
by the Creator of Love, Himself,
& that no other love is truer & realer & pure
& powerful & unconditional, as that.
& through your journey of growth, & realizations,
you will come to know the truth & the depth of the truth.
& confessions are necessary for your journey.
for you to know who you truly are in the face of adversity,
will be necessary. confessions. confessing who you are,
& what that means for your life, consistently, writing that onto your mind,
onto your heart, illuminating your spirit,
it manifest the transformation God has for you! :)
so that you may know who you truly are,
even in the face of your most powerful adversary.

pushing the wrong bounderies

you ever think you're more like the devil than you ever thought?
that you show signs and symptoms of behavior that led him to where he is.
feeling like an invincible rebel, knowing better, but choosing the fall.

we pride ourselves on being able to separate,
unable to relate,
stealing the right to cast judgement on another,
justifying our selfishness.

even that,
that method,
defense mechanism,
it's not righteous. lol.

& yes, we should separate,
but not by the doing of ourselves,
but our association, dependency,
on our Father in Heaven.
acceptance of that truth, for ones self,
that new creation is new, made differently and set apart.

but assessing our lust for casting judgement is not the aim of this.
but rather actions that result from our self-righteous thinking.
our desire and belief that we should please ourselves.
and rationalizing our actions with our own dense limited logic.

and sometimes, we get too smart for our own good.
too confident for the moral that keeps us alive,
puts breath in our bodies,
keeps us even though our falls are inevitable.

and how many times you get to that place,
how often, and how easy it becomes,
to the point, that 'your' way is the right way,
you will cause your own demise.
that point is unknown.
& how close to it we get, do we even know?
...until

live your belief

"evil will flourish when good men do nothing."

i saw this the other day.
of course it hit home, unfortunately.
oh how i love to be reminded to step out of my comfort zone,
trust God and walk in faith. -_____-

ssooo many times,
my strategy is to be low.
kind of maneuver around,
instead of intentionally interacting.
it shields me from the opinions of others.
but it also holds me back,
waters me down a bit.

this is also applied to my perspective too.
i become neutralized to certain things.
attitudes & indulgences. bad habits & ignorance.
from me and around me.
we get so used to how things are,
the way things have become,
that we settle in not going against the grain.
we keep a lot of ish inside, keep it personal to us.
those ideas & perspectives you keep inside of you,
the visions you've had, or messages you've gotten from what lives inside you,
things not so easily placed in society.
i mean maybe i'm alone on this. lol. & that's fine.

i haven't figured out the ideal approach.
i don't even know if you can have just one approach,
to everything that could be considered,
or if it should happen on a case by case,
where you don't compromise your attitude or your behavior
for the sake of comfort.
voice your opinion, politely.
we need different perspectives, constantly.
demonstrate your beliefs through your actions & lifestyle,
unwaveringly.

none of us are obviously perfect,
& as long as we are alive in this life,
we will never be.
but no one is expecting you to be perfect,
but to just try anyway.
& you will fall short, but believe & know,
you are covered,
& that your mistakes will never have the power to make or break you,
but the effort you put into being real, fearless, & faithful that will carry us.

because as real authentic individuals,
we have an obligation,
to be an example of that.
to illustrate that amongst all tragedy,
there is still a reason to be real,
to have a standard, to be better. :)