master plan

we have this notion of randomness. this idea that things just happen. 
this nonchalant attitude, that the little things, sometimes even the bigger ones, 
don't matter. 
& while this 'it is what it is' attitude may work for us...
help us survive the day to day... maintain focus. 
sometimes we're short-changing ourselves. 
missing out on a message, or even just a tiny truth, 
that could possibly manifest into a bigger one. 
i mean, why not take advantage of all the information around you, 
maybe it exist to help your day to day survival. 
your prosperity. 

you boo, 
are of divine design. 
a million reasons exist as to why you are the way you are, 
to think anything less, would be insulting to God. 

[OR, the way you could be. 
...i say that, because most us refuse to live up to our potential. 
myself included. 
we let doubt & insecurities limit the expectation we place on ourself. 
because the world tells you to be realistic.
pace yourself yes, but by no means limit what you feel your capable of]

i know you feel the burning desire to accomplish, :)
you have these dreams that you could be bigger than the success that pre-dates you. 
there's a reason. 

your preferences, 
your thoughts
your opinions & concerns,
even your questions,
are all apart of a master plan.

there is something that you can do,
that God needs you for, that no one else can give.
regardless of the doubts you have developed,
& placed upon yourself...
cause boo. God doesn't doubt. :)

he didn't doubt an ounce we he thought you into creation,
& thought you worthy of making regardless of our consistent eff-ups.
shouldn't we start acting like it, :)

never changes

i nearly finished this post, & then bam. the bad bam.
like my ish just all disappeared bam. -___-

& as i was speaking on conquering, i suddenly just felt conquered.
but here's where i can apply the good. the divine.
that things just don't happen,
there is always a reason,
& whether good or bad, you can prevail within it.

so no more thinking I'm useless to the creator who created me,
or that i am destined to fail due to my own shortcomings.
it's over for that mediocre thinking.
because honestly, you weren't designed that way.
that's not your natural nature.
& you should get hostile when a feeling arises that attempts to convince you of
that.

this is for you, you who can relate to me.
& I'm telling you, ohh, i feel it boo.
I've been there. parts of me still are.
but our feelings are not our friends.

but you can only gain resistance by enduring.
& by enduring you develop. it's inevitable.

cold world.
& even though the rain won't stop,
the sun will still always shine.

we learn to endure by knowing the one who made us to be more than conquerors,
the one who designed you and had you in mind before the formation of the earth,
there is nothing you can tell Him that He doesn't already know.
& nothing that can happen that can keep His original plan for you, from
prevailing.
except you. free will.

the Word of God is alive.
it awakens power within you.
puts the world under your feet.
because it gives you the truth, :)

we must protect our thoughts, our feelings.
keep them from the negative.
retain knowledge, making it easier to endure & eventually conquer.

The world is shifty, shapeless, & snakey.
God never changes.
His divine plan for you never expires.
& it endures. everything.
because your maker boo, he designed you to be as he is. :)

you vs. them

my perspective is changing. my desire. with people.
I love people. the things theyre capable of. the creation God designed.
our souls that fill us are a beautiful thing. divine design.
(while my heart can't fuel anything that isn't the truth, I have come to live peacefully in this war.
no judgements, no hate.
but my eyes belong to the Lord, & he monitors my hearing.
so I shall see things as they are, not as I wish they could be.
and I apply Gods way. because that is the only way.

so while my friends are still my friends.
either for ME, they are not the same,
or what friends are FOR, is not the same.
I am my own, only in control of my own.
my relationship with God, my progress,
it is only my own.
my spirit cannot dwell in another person,
another can not share what God is to me,
Except one.

being my whole,
my all,
...this is important. when it comes to 'friends' at least.
because if we dont share what the biggest most important thing is to me,
then how much can we really share.

my immediate reaction is to separate,
unoffensively.
...but this isn't about the physical situation,
but how I cope internally to a massive revelation.
something so significant previously, basically
changes immediately.

is this what he was put here for.
is he the motivation to separate from the storm.
a companion for the trial.
because he's the one person God gave me,
so bluntly, ...perfectly.
God flows through him, endlessly,
pouring directly & indirectly,
revelations, directions, obedience.
teaching of faith, patience,  & dedication.
a lesson in sacrifice.

as well as my prosperity, my abundance,
my grace & my favor.

because we share the same spirit,
the one connected to our Father.
& in us we believe the same things,
we learn the same things,
we're receiving the same things.

pre-designed.
our entire existence,
our entire relationship.

but he takes up a lot of space,
not leaving room for anyone who cannot meet the standard.
so them, they are at a distance,
but still seen with the Lord's eyes.

sometimes i get this feeling. to slow down. not to get too much done, to make sure you have something to do tomorrow. or in the days to come. whichever.
but isnt that crazy. it's a total oxy-moron. complete redundant way of thinking. yet, my mind will comprehend it as practical. acceptable obviously. o_O

this ish gots to go. im kicking that concept out the door. to the birds. kick rocks. there is never too much to know. too much to get done.
( now i do believe in a such thing as obsessed.
but that's not where i am right now. this is personal, not general. completely tailored to describe what im going through. don't feel crazy if you cant relate )

there's always a reason your in the moment your in. whether that reason or that moment is good or bad, there is one. so by making a habit of always doing the right thing. the God thing. the thing your spirit leads you to, your reasons are always divine, therefor so is your moment.
i always want divine moments.

because really, it's just a constant mind battle.

moments where your always fulfilled. full of joy. moments where you completely trust in your maker; knowing what he has done for you, and all that he plans to. complete regard of the love always there for you. the complete love. the love that considers your hopes and your dreams. your emotions and your family. your wants & your needs.
it gets you remembering; this moment is a divine one.

& you can go through boring jobs, because your working on something better, & God can always use this in the mean time. so really, i'm never missing out. nothing can prevent God. & that something better, it's not simply a desire, but a conquered goal. because that complete love always there for you, includes the victory. :)

you ma'am have already won.
act like it.
amen. :)

the end frm the beginning. :)

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be


calling the end from the beginning. the person i am. 
nothing in september. a lot happening. a lot of God working. A LOT of prophesy. :)
so this isnt simply to the person i wish i could be. 
but to this person i am. the person currently manifesting through me. 
God bless September, the month of moving faith, <3

stephiesosexy blog, Drawing: Tia frm Hollow Heart Gallery

a warrior of God. 
by works and by example. 
a living testimony of the abundant life. 
the life God thought and brought forth since the beginning of the creation. 
you are blessed. coming in & going out. 
you succeed in all you put your hands to, 
and continue to move as the Spirit of God leads you. 


nothing like this world. 
your entire life divine. 
your husband, & your children. <3
your career & your friends.
your experiences, your possessions. 


you create to inspire. 
as a servant first, 
then as a co-heir. 
to the kingdom that cannot be shaken. 


you take risk, and push limits.
believe in the impossible.
consistently increasing the measure of faith. 


with no spirit of fear, 
darkness abandons you, leaving you in grace. 
under the wing is where your entire existence resides. 


no time to waste. every second is worship.
you will experience all good things.
and endure the lessons.
learning, growing, saving!


your peace be multiplied, 
your heart fulfilled.
as your everlasting joy & hope live in the one who made you! :)