i wrote the post that is to follow, in september,
but things can move so fast in life,
& although one day you're feeling the victory,
other days, not so much.
mad shxt got in the way between me writing this,
& eventually posting it.
even now, I'm not so sure.
I mean, what it says is true,
but am i currently feeling ideal about life...
lol, no.
but that strengthens my desire to post this, even now.
because it be when I'm in the trenches,
that I'm feeling the boldest.
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It's amazing what God can do.
my last post,
was a piece of transparency.
I chose to lay out the insides of me,
in an effort to understand my own frustration,
as well as be a resource for anyone,
who could remotely relate.
I don't usually share my pain,
as it happens in the now.
too many distractions,
too much opportunity being given,
for something to be used against me.
usually, I'm too vulnerable in the midst of darkness.
too close to fear to let anyone in.
but i think I had just had enough.
& I refused to be scared after all that I had accomplished.
even if the world was so set on breaking me,
I could no longer be timid.
I realized my value, my worth, my ability...
nobody could take that away from me.
but the place I'm in now,
compared to where I was,
just a few months ago...
only God could do.
I knew that God turned my losses into wins,
I knew that everything that was taken from me,
had to be returned. in excess.
I knew that I was Gods, through Christ,
and that His purpose is to raise me,
take me high,
bless me and use me.
just a quick short list,
to add physical details,
to the manifestation of Gods glory in my life.
I was promoted way up at work,
along with a hefty raise, :)
steadily becoming an expert in my field.
I'm in law school now, part time,
& I love it.
my new apartment, is flourishing.
& so are a lot of people around me.
&&& that's just the short list.
I'm constantly being challenged,
but when you know you can't lose,
because the creator of the universe has already set you up to win,
you embrace the opportunity to become better,
to grow, evolve, to give and to share.
I am a product of Christ.
my life is solely dedicated to Him,
& in Him, is everything good!
