...words of God

something so divine about all of this.
& i love it. absolutely.
the shit is better then magic.
its like i can live this dream, connected to this higher power,
who somehow has it all laid out for me.
and provides impenetrable heavenly help.

no wonder.
lord of the rings.
the golden compass.
etc.

i mean. this divine entity, God, who knows me better than myself.
uhh, wow.
like, really take a moment and try to wrap your head around the reality of God.
(here he is, up to all good.)

well, im going to law school.
and i need to get a mammogram.
or dominique.

im expanding something.
while creating another.
with a God surrounding me.
& the ideal monster next to me.

things are always changing.
always for the better.

but with that comes huge responsibility.
but full of love. pleasure in spreading faith. :)

youve been a witness to something so many will miss out on. amen for that.
be thankful for your position. grow into it.

...p.s..i couldnt have done this better myself.

remind yourself

unless you minimize the exposure & recognize the fuckery immediately, a situation can turn into six. options are bent, and realities screwed, and one outlook suddenly becomes six. (exhibit a)

whether your shit is legit or not, people are gonnah talk shit. inputs are going to be suggested. & your stand on the play becomes immobile. she says she always does what she wants. but really, she's doing what she thinks other people would do. & i say think, because other people are simply doing shit they think other people are doing too.

why should i waste my time attempting to convince you that im legit. & why should i have to devote time to attempting to relay that. im that way all the time. everybody's human. so eventually youll recognize my being if its something similar to whats already in you. & then there's the rest. & thats who, 'i dont give a fuck' is for.

i say untraditional, because frontin has become the populist view. & my untraditional take on life is only shared by the bosses. yes. i can live with that. i will sacrifice the acceptance of minimalist, for the sake of something grand.

for example. check exhibit a. :)

well currently. thats my ride. & my pastor spent a little extra time on me yesterday !! amen. :)

pot filled joints blowin out purple

forgive me.
im big enough to see when i come across a mistake.
a misconception. smh.
cause i was just sooo sure.
and i was wrong.

how could i have missed this?
i swear i tried.
i remembered.
think i gave the whole thing play.
but then. i couldnt piece it all together.

whatever the reasons that may be.
that fact still remains.

so now, here i am. listening.
in the midst of conflict.
that arised from a 'lack of regard' to something that was so significant.
then my attempts to dismiss it.
smh. icing on the cake.

were always so worried if the other person can make it. if they can make that commitment to a vision always weathering a storm. 

my attitude needed to be put in check. lol. he's obviously still the man here. lol. :)

my re-draft attitude includes so much more of him. and me. back in my place. eager to learn. lol.

beautiful struggle

of all the people who have used this title to describe some compilation or situation, i understand.
a trial that is inevitable, one that you welcome.

im holding tight to my days. attempting to acknowledge every step. not because the reward outweighs the sacrifice, but my only option is to be righteous

have God, everything else will come.

the conflict doesnt arise in believing.  the conflict arises pertaining it to you.
so my struggle consist of convincing myself.
that the rules of this world are truly absurd, and your soul doesnt settle within it.
the peace is acquired when you can see this world through grace.

the masses dont affect your concrete devotion to truth.
and you refuse to lie to yourself.
introducing the straight & narrow.

do not envy, for it isnt your place to determine someone else's value.
and you have been told, that the worlds possibilities are your own.
what else is there to question.

we keep it..

Big-N-Bad by Kid Sister. love this. :)