i recognized something today,
something that i've already known,
but have consistently pushed to the back of my mind.
i realize
the enemy has used the things i like,
to replace the things i love.
distractions are an essential tactic
of the enemy.
to keep you from purpose,
from peace,
from prosperity.
trials can arise un-welcomed feelings.
shame, defeat, inadequacy.
and those feelings confront me now.
i want to believe what God says,
which is so strong in my heart.
that trials reveal courage,
and produce strength.
they also open eyes and minds
to previously hidden truths,
about ourselves,
& about our God.
i'm so grateful for this moment,
to be writing these words,
fulfilling this purpose.
but i'm in the midst of uncertainty and chaos.
and feeling peace,
seems irresponsible.
i've been through enough,
and am too familiar with the negative confronting me,
to know that my Father would never forsake me.
that every low is only temporary,
and that God is always many steps ahead of me.
so in this, what i have seen,
is that the world's "peace"
brought upon by a false sense of security,
in the things we believe the world has given us,
is deceiving us.
and peace is not money or certainty in our own ability,
but in our Father,
and the truth that He is always with us,
always working for and in us,
regardless of what our circumstances look like.
i previously called 2020 the year of breakthrough,
for other reasons,
but i'm seeing more now.
so i choose to defy the enemy,
and be happy in his face.
be grateful,
and positively expectant.
i will not take the fear he is trying to hand me,
and i won't just look at my now,
but at all the wins God has handed me.
