blah blah, no need for intro's...
with you ive learned, expectations are garbage.
& while standards can exist, they will not always be applied.
with you ive learned forgiveness,
and the patience it takes to get there.
ive learned that i cannot make you be the person i always need.
i guess you've nourished my relationship with God indirectly that way.
this is all love,
stricken with a little pain.
because although youve helped me like a bestfriend,
you hurt me like an enemy.
i lay my whole being on the table, not to offend you...
but to allow us both to grow.
& i dont doubt God works in your life.
but it's what is inside you that holds you back.
those grudges you can't let go of.
the pain from the past that you let construct your future...
those pieces of evil that i feel you embrace,
rather then fighting their existence.
so what do i do with a friend like you.
on the outside, you pose to be everything i need.
but realistically, your not half the women you could become.
so it comes down to this.
the love is real.
the commitment. the defense.
the responsibility.
from me to you.
& while i feel you want to love me,
the way i love you...
all that stuff on your insides, will never let you.
so i can't really trust you,
& i dont really depend on you.
& i always expect to fight my own battles.
i promise.
i love you the most.
but you have taught me....
a friend is still just a friend.
