Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

ahaahahahahahaha. i was looking for a title under which i can place you under within this letter list.
because unfortunately, for a second, i let you become too fuckin significant.
thankfully, with BIG Homie up there, we can somewhat retract steps.
obviously not recreate what happened, but redefine its meaning.
&& obviously, were just talking about me here.

there's so many reasons why...&& ive went through them all. Attempting to find the necessity in all of this. there has to be one, because i was with the program. and even though what i intended, is not what came to pass. i can make this situation anything i want to. for me at least. :)
we have BIG Homie to thank for that.

so what has brought me comfort is my entire demeanor. what i was before you, & what i will continue to be after.
you see. you can say what you like. but my character speaks for itself.
decades of realness has brought that about, & this by no means has the power to shift that. under any circumstances, eevveerr. :)

but with that into consideration, there is a reason it was you. & that i treasure. :) you're a giant amongst midgets. & you know it. but you have yet realized how to maneuver around them. instead.... you pahlay w/ the crowd. that is something only time can teach. and my timing...in the context of you? wwwaaaayyyyyyy ooofffffffffff! lol. (this is want impatience can bring...)

because of my behavior, youve become a testimonial. an experience. thankfully a rich one, because inevitably, i have good taste. but im more thankful that i'm capable of learning. learning you, learning myself, & this context in which we thrive in. this hiphop demeanor shit.

so your neither good nor bad. you are you. a wonder at what you are :) & i will pray for your success. and even continue to help you thrive. if i can.
because really, that is what created this.
a winner helping a winner win. :)

in the mean time. ...im chilling like the hook say, of whom shall i beware.
xoxo, w/o the kisses. :)