aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!
i have to be the example for my relationship.
i have to be the source in which the grace works through.
but i cant be that when i'm entirely way too turnt.
it's not so much about the judgement,
as it is about the risk.
what we're jepordizing when we alienate ourselves from the direction of God.
which inevitably is what we're doing.
God can only act on your behalf as He intends,
when youre in the posistion He intends for you to be in.
Why waste time using up God's mercy to cover up our deliberate shortcomings,
instead of using His power to fulfill His purpose for us,
on behalf of the Kingdom.
the cost is too high,
when it comes as an expense of not only you,
but a kingdom in which you were meant to rule & reign.
more than any other reason,
God simply deserves our regard.
we owe him for life, passion, oppurtunity, love.
there's no greater feeling, than knowing you are pleasing to your creator.
that while you constantly seek His unconditional love,
you find unlimited favor with Him as well.
because there has to be a reason,
why God doesnt prefer to get lit.
something about it, that retracts from joy,
kinda seems like, it's not what it seems.
like it doesnt serve any productive purpose,
so like, why do we always pursue it?
can we admit that we're weak.
we get frustrated, we get prideful.
we desire comfort, we feel we deserve it.
it's our right to function,
to get lost in the sauce.
we're attempting to obtain a feeling,
that ideally, God wants us to constantly live in purposfully.
security and relief. fulfillment and joy.
why trade that for confusion or regret.
are we really that dense?
because we are running the risk.
even if sometimes, aren't as bad as others.
of course it's not easy,
and while initially it might make sense,
it's so easy for us to fall back into patterns,
that constantly stare us down from our culture.
so what are we holding on to?
culture or God?
isn't the sacrfice of the lesser worth
working towards the greater,
for the Greater
with the Greater?
