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in the meantime, this will always be true, <3

become attach to everything you do. 

imagine that every action defines you. 

then learn Gods take on those things. 

so you can learn the repercussions that'll stand before you. 

I'm lacking clarity. 

i know what i think i want, but my wisdom isn't what's best for me 

I'm tryna dig ditches. create investments. within every action. 

so that ill always reap more than what i sow 

only God's direction can do that for you.

isn't it crazy though, that your outside drowns out your inside voice.

confusion precedes destruction.

I'm scared of that.

where is your will, what're you fighting for?

is it what you were created for,

or are the limits of the world placed upon your potential?

the L is for lacking.

go after the wrong thing, & there'll always be something missing.

intentions matter, true motives.

our hearts hold our lives, our deepest desires.

& you can lie to yourself, but you can't lie to your heart.

nothing's barely ever what it seems.

so hold your words. & speak only inevitable truths.

because you always know less than what you think.

& the room to grow keeps getting bigger.

fill it, instead of evacuating.

cause your ignorance will force you out.

impossible not to trust God, because only through his eyes are the truth.

the one thing. hello stranger.

ive started writing this letter a million times. made a bunch of outlines, restarted, etc...
in my attempt to approach a stranger just right, i probably would have managed to scare them away.

curious about all the answers? always attempted to crack the formula for life?
...i mean not the small things like calculus  and light years. but the bigger picture.
all that and some. including the science of love, & the process of easing the difficulty that can arise w/ family.

ever think its so much simpler then people make it.
i mean there are a million theories.
a million philosophers, tarot readers, astrologist...
that while there truths may share some similarities,
theyre hostility towards each other make you wonder.

& then there's the taboo subject of religion.
& the sensitivity involved treading on such thin ice.
but why if your religion was so concrete, must i tread so softly in discussion.
shouldn't theories and truth be able to be tested, applied, taken out of context and still hold like glue?
i mean, unless there are a whole lot of holes.
& then there's us logical people...who wants to entrust in something with a whole lot of holes?
doesn't sound too reliable right?

but lets take it back, waaay back.
to one of the first.
this divine entity named Jesus i mean...
whoa whoa, i understand your hesitation.
but let's just consider...

i mean i know Christianity has been exploited,
to hell & back...
& if we take from some of those old myths, & philosophers...
Jesus wasn't the first immaculate conception.
but guess what, I'm a Christian.
& your right, Jesus wasn't the first immaculate conception.

there are all these other truths of reality that exist.
but God through Jesus answers them all.
Jesus just isnt some man.
i mean...why couldn't God have a son?
a son he made human for us..
as an example. and a savior.

i mean. God is immaculate. this divine entity of perfection.
the beginning & the end.
& we mortals, although made in the image of God, are tainted.
evil messes really.
i mean, just look at the proof in this world.
while specks of good do exist, we are drowned in poverty, disease, materialism, & a host of other -ism's.
wouldn't you agree? ...right.
& God didn't make us like that. that was not his intention.
If God, himself were to come in our presence, we would disintegrate. I mean, all that good, around all our evil.
we couldn't withstand being in the company of such perfection. love you couldn't even imagine. we would drop dead.
so here's your question....'doesn't God know everything?'
yes, yes he does.
but just because God foreknows all things, does not mean that is the motivation for us doing them.
we act on evil due to other forces. & God is a God of law, giving you free-will, & always abiding by the laws of nature he set in place.
so he's not going to go against that and force his good-will upon you.
but he will provide a way out.

here comes the purpose of his son.
this awesome being, becoming human, but only acting in the ways of God,
therefore always unlike us, while still being like us.
with the power to become our scape-goat.
bearing all of our evil.
(come-ooonn, you know there is some evil in you...selfishness, greed, envy, materialism
....we all have a little)
but Jesus bears our responsibility. giving us a way to obtain perfection through grace.
& not because you deserve it. you could never deserve it.
but because God loves you that much.
that he sacrificed his son, allowed him to be humiliated, tortured, and killed,
....so that he may rise again.
symbolizing our own death, as well as re-births!
our death from this evil nature we know so well.
into one that can stand to live and breath in the presence of our Living God.

kind of romantic right.
the ultimate love story.
shakespeare has nothing on the authors of God. :)
& this is a package deal man, full of perks and power.
so you can help your friends & family.
save them from this hopelessly dead world.
and have them rise above their circumstances. :)
just imagine.

if you were bigger than your bank acct. bigger than your closet. bigger than your 'relationships'
bigger than disease. bigger than hardships. bigger than your job.
for once, life doesn't make you...but YOU MAKE LIFE! :)
& then...once you get God, through his ultimate son Jesus,
he will give you EVERYTHING ELSE.
the phat bank acct. the walk in closet. the ultimate relationship.
the smooth as buttah family. the best job.

so this stranger, is my letter to you.
my one true advice.
that i will hold my own life to.
to guarantee that it will work for you.
& you will love it.
love being loved with the most ultimate, phenomenal love.
living in it. & sharing it.
giving everything,
losing nothing,
& gaining eternity. :)
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we are not victims of circumstance.

a little less of me, a whole lot more of HIM. :)

my fast was a gigantic experience.
...pure love.
& even failed battles.

intense reflection,
with guiding hands,
that lead to pivotal lessons,
learned.

an intimate connection,
always on.
a love high,
instantly accessible.

gratification,
always for another.
with enough left over,
that i too,
am filled abundantly.

romantic moments.
on rose colored petals of gold.
a wealthy spirit.
completely edified.

the task at hand was not easy.
but the reward i will never be deserving of.
through grace though,
i walked within it. received it.
experienced for a week. sowing.
reaping for a lifetime.

...words of God

something so divine about all of this.
& i love it. absolutely.
the shit is better then magic.
its like i can live this dream, connected to this higher power,
who somehow has it all laid out for me.
and provides impenetrable heavenly help.

no wonder.
lord of the rings.
the golden compass.
etc.

i mean. this divine entity, God, who knows me better than myself.
uhh, wow.
like, really take a moment and try to wrap your head around the reality of God.
(here he is, up to all good.)

well, im going to law school.
and i need to get a mammogram.
or dominique.

im expanding something.
while creating another.
with a God surrounding me.
& the ideal monster next to me.

things are always changing.
always for the better.

but with that comes huge responsibility.
but full of love. pleasure in spreading faith. :)

youve been a witness to something so many will miss out on. amen for that.
be thankful for your position. grow into it.

...p.s..i couldnt have done this better myself.