something radical

i wanted to come here before my computer falls asleep to start this. 
at least. because it is so important to me. 
and the habit of forgetting that, is getting old. 

how many times will i forget, 
that i am made up of words. 
God's words. towards me. for me. 

they tried to update blogger while i was away. 
nice try, but try harder. 
anyway, grateful for this medium regardless. 
simple. straight to the point. 

i made a voice note recently, 
about a moment that happened while I was praying. 
a shift in perspective, in not only what I was praying for, 
but also in my approach to our Father. 

Ultimately it had to do with asking and believing for something, 
that may or may not work within the law that our Father has established for this time. 
Because I was praying for someone else and I don't know their relationship with the Father. 
and for some reason I felt that whatever that relationship was, would affect the answer to my prayer. 

But when Jesus healed one at the request of another, 
it was never the faith of the sick that was questioned. 
(in some instances, the sick were dead.)
Jesus healed on account of the one asking. 
the father, the sister, the brother. 

we should never let pre-judgements take up room in our prayers for other people. 
it is not Godly, it is not how Jesus moved. 
i know that my Father is a Healer and wills for us to be and live healed. 
everyone! & I know that regardless of the circumstances, the miracles of my Father
will be a testament to His love and faithfulness, 
bringing glory to the Kingdom. 

sometimes it's so hard to live in the truth of God, 
because it is so different from our worldly way. 
but when we sit on a verse, a truth of God, 
& focus on it, dwell on it, meditate on it, day and night, 
think of it in relation to everything else thought of,
because the truth of God is the highest truth, nothing else is truer, 
that Word becomes a part of you. 
it becomes apart of your dna and changes you. 
changes things around you. 

our Father brought me here to tell me this, 
because i myself am changing. 
and it is my legacy that motivates that change daily. 

living God's truth relentlessly, is radical. 
it takes true intent, patience and boldness. 
it is unlike anything else, 
but it is your born again right to live in that power. 
and you can do it, and you will do it. 
and you are doing it right now. 

in the name of Jesus in which i live and breath. amen. 

current truth.

...because this couldn't wait.

in contracts class, writing & posting this. 

it doesn't stop here. 

I'm a savage, I'm a bear. 

sh%t happens

i should be careful of what i say,
writing down thoughts,
makes them permanent memories.

but i'm feeling bold,
& honestly i think this is good.
thoughts i'm uncomfortable with,
but pushing through them.

frame of reference.
i get used to an atmosphere,
specific circumstances....
& then things change,
for the better.
& i maneuver, gladly.
& get accustomed.

then, things change again.
for the worse.
where the f#*k has my frame of reference gone?
can't even seem to remember, what encouraged you to make it.
can't feel that which made you believe you could.
so now, you feel foolish, that you ever thought you could...
that you even came this far....

but then you realize,
that even if you don't know how, you did.
you have made it this far,
even under those circumstances that seem so foreign to you now.

so really,
i'm like f%*k those thoughts that tell me i'm being silly,
for believing in a dream,
counting on it even...
because i'm here now,
& that in itself is a thousand miracles.
& while circumstances change,
sometimes for what seems like the worse,
God's working. Jesus is for me! :)
i can literally... never lose!

never changes

i nearly finished this post, & then bam. the bad bam.
like my ish just all disappeared bam. -___-

& as i was speaking on conquering, i suddenly just felt conquered.
but here's where i can apply the good. the divine.
that things just don't happen,
there is always a reason,
& whether good or bad, you can prevail within it.

so no more thinking I'm useless to the creator who created me,
or that i am destined to fail due to my own shortcomings.
it's over for that mediocre thinking.
because honestly, you weren't designed that way.
that's not your natural nature.
& you should get hostile when a feeling arises that attempts to convince you of
that.

this is for you, you who can relate to me.
& I'm telling you, ohh, i feel it boo.
I've been there. parts of me still are.
but our feelings are not our friends.

but you can only gain resistance by enduring.
& by enduring you develop. it's inevitable.

cold world.
& even though the rain won't stop,
the sun will still always shine.

we learn to endure by knowing the one who made us to be more than conquerors,
the one who designed you and had you in mind before the formation of the earth,
there is nothing you can tell Him that He doesn't already know.
& nothing that can happen that can keep His original plan for you, from
prevailing.
except you. free will.

the Word of God is alive.
it awakens power within you.
puts the world under your feet.
because it gives you the truth, :)

we must protect our thoughts, our feelings.
keep them from the negative.
retain knowledge, making it easier to endure & eventually conquer.

The world is shifty, shapeless, & snakey.
God never changes.
His divine plan for you never expires.
& it endures. everything.
because your maker boo, he designed you to be as he is. :)

the end frm the beginning. :)

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be


calling the end from the beginning. the person i am. 
nothing in september. a lot happening. a lot of God working. A LOT of prophesy. :)
so this isnt simply to the person i wish i could be. 
but to this person i am. the person currently manifesting through me. 
God bless September, the month of moving faith, <3

stephiesosexy blog, Drawing: Tia frm Hollow Heart Gallery

a warrior of God. 
by works and by example. 
a living testimony of the abundant life. 
the life God thought and brought forth since the beginning of the creation. 
you are blessed. coming in & going out. 
you succeed in all you put your hands to, 
and continue to move as the Spirit of God leads you. 


nothing like this world. 
your entire life divine. 
your husband, & your children. <3
your career & your friends.
your experiences, your possessions. 


you create to inspire. 
as a servant first, 
then as a co-heir. 
to the kingdom that cannot be shaken. 


you take risk, and push limits.
believe in the impossible.
consistently increasing the measure of faith. 


with no spirit of fear, 
darkness abandons you, leaving you in grace. 
under the wing is where your entire existence resides. 


no time to waste. every second is worship.
you will experience all good things.
and endure the lessons.
learning, growing, saving!


your peace be multiplied, 
your heart fulfilled.
as your everlasting joy & hope live in the one who made you! :)

morning babble. at work. :)

let go of the world.
let go of the co-signs.

you havent really let go of the world.
if you still acknowledge their co-signs.

subconciously what your saying,
is that, you dont give a fuck,
because even by their standards,
your killin.
acknowledgement is respect.
do not respect the world.

so how do we completely let go of a world,
that raised us.
that still surrounds us?

but even asking this,
is an insult to the Most High.
who exist that poseses a threat to your guardian?
there is none.
what situation exist that God cannot interupt?
there is none.

God made you.
he is your creator.
with maker's knowledge. he knows you,
better then you know yourself.

God wants you closer to him
then to anything else.
this is the will of God.
will he then, not make a way of escape,
from the world that corrupted you from birth.

the answers are there.
your victory is only waiting,
do not fight battles you have already won,
re-affirm their defeat.

lost at where the journey begins?
unsure of your position?

ask God,
ask him whatever
& believe he will answer you,
because he said he will.
God is not a liar.
He wants you to hold him to his word
the original idea of integrity.

and then wait,
for God loves time.
Invest in yourself through
indulgement in the divine. :)