And while my desire is to always obey God,
I had a hard time determining his truth at that moment.
And then He spoke to me through words and revealed a vital truth.
The heart of you is your Spirit.
Your essential rootand being is in the part of you that resembles God,
the breath that he blew into you.
& sometimes your mind won't be able to comprehend this,
& our experience is unfamiliar.
we walk on faith,
the faith in the ultimate, conquering, prosperous Love God has for us.
aaaahhhhhhh!
"this is always how the enemey always pursues you.
manipulates my word to you, and condems you.
attempts to seperate you with vulnerable situations in your life.
with law school.
with munchkin.
with your book.
i have expressed many times my purposes for you,
have inspired scriptures in your heart,
proving to you that i am a partner in your labor.
my grace and mercy avail much.
and much higher are my ways than yours.
there are things you do not understand,
this can be considered unfamiliar territory.
will you die here?
your logic will be the death of your faith.
and you are fortunate that you have understood this much.
but do not take pride in your understanding,
take it as favor. undeserving blessing.
so that you may humble yourself, and not count on it,
but rely on Me."
