a conversation : Easter significance

all the holidays that center Jesus are important to me. 
Easter is no exception. I love the association with newness, growth,
once was dead is now alive. spring. :)

but even beyond that. into the moments that precede that Resurrection Sunday.
Jesus’s moments. with the Father, His companions, His enemies. 

this year I gave up something for lent.
something i really did not want to give up too.
and I knew i would need the Spirit of the Lord to follow through. 

i also read some bible plans that highlighted why i chose to even participate in lent.
to acknowledge the 40 days and 40 nights Christ spent in the wilderness being tested,
prior to fulfilling His mission on the cross.
and to force myself into a commitment that although would be good for me, made me seriously uncomfortable.
a commitment that i made to and with the Father as worship and praise because He strengthens me for all good work, and all things work together for the good of those that love Him. 

i am filled with gratitude and i needed to share.
i needed to share with someone who is so important to me something that is so important to me.
i had to share this praise, worship, acknowledgment, understanding, and revelation with my person.
and so today we talked about the significance of Easter.
well, mostly i talked, but it is God’s Spirit that leads me.
and in those moments we got to dwell on Jesus and remember
and remind ourselves of God’s intention and Jesus’s journey.

i’m not saying this is a huge deal or some cause for celebration,
but it is special to me.

i love God, i love learning about my relationship with Him,
His work in creating me, His work in saving me.
and to get to share that with the most significant person in my life is everything. 

to see my relationship constantly growing,
constantly leaning on God’s faithfulness is all I could ever want for my family.
It is what Christ died to give me and we are forever eternally grateful and faithful.

something radical

i wanted to come here before my computer falls asleep to start this. 
at least. because it is so important to me. 
and the habit of forgetting that, is getting old. 

how many times will i forget, 
that i am made up of words. 
God's words. towards me. for me. 

they tried to update blogger while i was away. 
nice try, but try harder. 
anyway, grateful for this medium regardless. 
simple. straight to the point. 

i made a voice note recently, 
about a moment that happened while I was praying. 
a shift in perspective, in not only what I was praying for, 
but also in my approach to our Father. 

Ultimately it had to do with asking and believing for something, 
that may or may not work within the law that our Father has established for this time. 
Because I was praying for someone else and I don't know their relationship with the Father. 
and for some reason I felt that whatever that relationship was, would affect the answer to my prayer. 

But when Jesus healed one at the request of another, 
it was never the faith of the sick that was questioned. 
(in some instances, the sick were dead.)
Jesus healed on account of the one asking. 
the father, the sister, the brother. 

we should never let pre-judgements take up room in our prayers for other people. 
it is not Godly, it is not how Jesus moved. 
i know that my Father is a Healer and wills for us to be and live healed. 
everyone! & I know that regardless of the circumstances, the miracles of my Father
will be a testament to His love and faithfulness, 
bringing glory to the Kingdom. 

sometimes it's so hard to live in the truth of God, 
because it is so different from our worldly way. 
but when we sit on a verse, a truth of God, 
& focus on it, dwell on it, meditate on it, day and night, 
think of it in relation to everything else thought of,
because the truth of God is the highest truth, nothing else is truer, 
that Word becomes a part of you. 
it becomes apart of your dna and changes you. 
changes things around you. 

our Father brought me here to tell me this, 
because i myself am changing. 
and it is my legacy that motivates that change daily. 

living God's truth relentlessly, is radical. 
it takes true intent, patience and boldness. 
it is unlike anything else, 
but it is your born again right to live in that power. 
and you can do it, and you will do it. 
and you are doing it right now. 

in the name of Jesus in which i live and breath. amen. 

“Spiritually, I Was Bankrupt”

this man is amazing. his courage. his boldness. ugh. i admire him.
currently reading his book, Wretched, Pitiful, Poor, Blind.
honesty, sincerity, faith, <3
everything we could all use a bit more of.

the one thing. hello stranger.

ive started writing this letter a million times. made a bunch of outlines, restarted, etc...
in my attempt to approach a stranger just right, i probably would have managed to scare them away.

curious about all the answers? always attempted to crack the formula for life?
...i mean not the small things like calculus  and light years. but the bigger picture.
all that and some. including the science of love, & the process of easing the difficulty that can arise w/ family.

ever think its so much simpler then people make it.
i mean there are a million theories.
a million philosophers, tarot readers, astrologist...
that while there truths may share some similarities,
theyre hostility towards each other make you wonder.

& then there's the taboo subject of religion.
& the sensitivity involved treading on such thin ice.
but why if your religion was so concrete, must i tread so softly in discussion.
shouldn't theories and truth be able to be tested, applied, taken out of context and still hold like glue?
i mean, unless there are a whole lot of holes.
& then there's us logical people...who wants to entrust in something with a whole lot of holes?
doesn't sound too reliable right?

but lets take it back, waaay back.
to one of the first.
this divine entity named Jesus i mean...
whoa whoa, i understand your hesitation.
but let's just consider...

i mean i know Christianity has been exploited,
to hell & back...
& if we take from some of those old myths, & philosophers...
Jesus wasn't the first immaculate conception.
but guess what, I'm a Christian.
& your right, Jesus wasn't the first immaculate conception.

there are all these other truths of reality that exist.
but God through Jesus answers them all.
Jesus just isnt some man.
i mean...why couldn't God have a son?
a son he made human for us..
as an example. and a savior.

i mean. God is immaculate. this divine entity of perfection.
the beginning & the end.
& we mortals, although made in the image of God, are tainted.
evil messes really.
i mean, just look at the proof in this world.
while specks of good do exist, we are drowned in poverty, disease, materialism, & a host of other -ism's.
wouldn't you agree? ...right.
& God didn't make us like that. that was not his intention.
If God, himself were to come in our presence, we would disintegrate. I mean, all that good, around all our evil.
we couldn't withstand being in the company of such perfection. love you couldn't even imagine. we would drop dead.
so here's your question....'doesn't God know everything?'
yes, yes he does.
but just because God foreknows all things, does not mean that is the motivation for us doing them.
we act on evil due to other forces. & God is a God of law, giving you free-will, & always abiding by the laws of nature he set in place.
so he's not going to go against that and force his good-will upon you.
but he will provide a way out.

here comes the purpose of his son.
this awesome being, becoming human, but only acting in the ways of God,
therefore always unlike us, while still being like us.
with the power to become our scape-goat.
bearing all of our evil.
(come-ooonn, you know there is some evil in you...selfishness, greed, envy, materialism
....we all have a little)
but Jesus bears our responsibility. giving us a way to obtain perfection through grace.
& not because you deserve it. you could never deserve it.
but because God loves you that much.
that he sacrificed his son, allowed him to be humiliated, tortured, and killed,
....so that he may rise again.
symbolizing our own death, as well as re-births!
our death from this evil nature we know so well.
into one that can stand to live and breath in the presence of our Living God.

kind of romantic right.
the ultimate love story.
shakespeare has nothing on the authors of God. :)
& this is a package deal man, full of perks and power.
so you can help your friends & family.
save them from this hopelessly dead world.
and have them rise above their circumstances. :)
just imagine.

if you were bigger than your bank acct. bigger than your closet. bigger than your 'relationships'
bigger than disease. bigger than hardships. bigger than your job.
for once, life doesn't make you...but YOU MAKE LIFE! :)
& then...once you get God, through his ultimate son Jesus,
he will give you EVERYTHING ELSE.
the phat bank acct. the walk in closet. the ultimate relationship.
the smooth as buttah family. the best job.

so this stranger, is my letter to you.
my one true advice.
that i will hold my own life to.
to guarantee that it will work for you.
& you will love it.
love being loved with the most ultimate, phenomenal love.
living in it. & sharing it.
giving everything,
losing nothing,
& gaining eternity. :)
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we are not victims of circumstance.

a little less of me, a whole lot more of HIM. :)

my fast was a gigantic experience.
...pure love.
& even failed battles.

intense reflection,
with guiding hands,
that lead to pivotal lessons,
learned.

an intimate connection,
always on.
a love high,
instantly accessible.

gratification,
always for another.
with enough left over,
that i too,
am filled abundantly.

romantic moments.
on rose colored petals of gold.
a wealthy spirit.
completely edified.

the task at hand was not easy.
but the reward i will never be deserving of.
through grace though,
i walked within it. received it.
experienced for a week. sowing.
reaping for a lifetime.