silence the noise.

life is a funny thing. 
so many opinions masquerading as truths, 
so many people with a platform for no other reason but being charismatic.
i would even argue that lies are so often promoted as part of a larger strategy.
if some are willing to push an agenda based on false narrative, 
whether consciously or unconsciously, they can benefit from being propped up and circulated. 

but just because a narrative is loud and repeated often, 
doesn't mean it's true. 
and that's the crazy part, 
the battle. 
because hearing is powerful. it's part of the design of you and i and this world as we know it. 
it's infectious. 
it's manipulative, in what can be either good or bad. 
it begins to shift your thinking which in turn can shift your mind, your brain, your chemistry. 

and that's the battle. 
because we have to fight and fight hard, 
to silence noise and false narratives. 
we have to look below the surface and dissect, 
what and who does this narrative serve. 

and if you have no foundation for what matters in life, 
this is not for you. 
you are destined to be thrown to and fro, from one idea to the next, 
never giving yourself the opportunity to be rooted in truth. 
never actually knowing who you are. 

as for me, i'm on heaven's side. 
the creators of the entire universe. 
Their mission is my mission. 
Their priorities are my priorities. 
obviously within scale. lol. 
but Their values are my values. 
Their truth is my truth. 

and whether you believe it or not. 
Their truth is the only truth. sorry not sorry. 
& i say that with an open mind and an open heart, 
knowing that their truths have been manipulated, 
extorted and misinterpreted for the sake of someone else's agenda, time and time again. 
but that does not negate the truth. that there is only one and it belongs to Them,
the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. 

i feel so called because like what?!
let me be a representative because baby, a lot of y'all got it backwards. 
first, if you're not leading with love, please sit down. 
let me elaborate. 

let's stop equating our path as the right one. 
know God and know that He is not limited in how He can move through another's life. 
another's life that may not look like yours. 
whose choices you may not understand. 
knock knock. God's way is the only right way, but that looks different for different people, 
with different purposes and different roles. 

and when you create discourse about how others should approach or live the life God created them to live, you are working against the trinity. 

so many of us, myself included try so hard to justify our wants. 
luxury everything, five star meals, around the world trips, over consumption, etc. etc. 
and while there is nothing inherently wrong with wanting nice things, 
we have to know where to place those things. 
we have to know where to place career ambition, 
we have to know where to place chasing beauty and attractiveness. 
we have to know where to place fitness and body goals. 
we have to know where to place sexiness. 
we have to know where to place wealth. 
we have to know where to place the party.

none of those things are God's priority, especially if they are not being used to further the kingdom. 
babyyy, you were bought with the heftiest price. 
your life is not your own. 
period. 
you are a steward of this life you've been given. 
you are precious and on purpose. you are one of one.
and your impact for the kingdom is invaluable. 
you, just yourself, are invaluable. 
but not because of what you've accomplished or what you've obtained, 
but simply as a creation of the most high creators. 

so let's stop platforming people just because they have what you think they want. 
is it Godly? is it in line with the purpose with which you were created?
being selfish has a place but it's limited and we've taken it too far. 
so how am i inspiring others? how am i uplifting those who see me?
how am i doing God's bidding?
it's not enough to love God in private but it should be reflected in our lifestyle and in our choices. 

God prevailed me 🌈

i have been transformed. 

when i look back at 2025 i'm so grateful. 
i fall on my knees to thank God for bringing me through. 
i have a heart full of gratitude,
but if you saw my 2025, you would wonder why. lol. 

from beginning to end, chaos. 
things that could go wrong, did. 
breaks that could have helped, didn't come. lol. 
but all in all, the Lord sustained me. 

and let me tell you. 
He didn't just sustain me, 
He held me close. 
He fueled my peace and joy, so that regardless of my circumstances, 
i knew the Trinity was with me and within me. 

i knew that my circumstances would not kill me, 
although at times they felt like they would. 
i was able to enjoy my life, even though it seemed liked attacks were endless. 
financial attacks, physical attacks, emotional and mental attacks. fear tried to overcome me. distress tried to overcome me. life wanted me to give in and give up. 

but God prevailed me. 
i remained content in every season. 
i embraced the lesson, eventually, and came out better than when i went in. 

i'm believing for continued sustainment in 2026. 
i'm believing for the manifestation for the desires in my heart. 
i'm believing for the wisdom to receive God's blessings in His glory. 
i'm believing for the words to express my gratitude, 
to yell my testimony to the world. 
to bring others back into the family of Christ where they belong. 
i'm believing for restoration. to be used as a restorer for the Kingdom. 

i'm believing that my family and our lives
are living testimonies of God's grace, His mercy and His love. 

God ended this year by opening new doors for me. 
I believe that will continue in 2026. 
i'm so sure of it. 

as always, to God be all the glory, all the power, all the honor and all the praise. 

sunday 10/12/25

today, i got a message. a promise. a challenge. 

the Father attempting to reach me by extending His grace once again. 

reminding me that He created me and knows what’s in my heart. He knows how to manifest it, how to wield it and use it for not only my good but for the good of the kingdom.

He’s challenging me to put action behind my values.

todays church service reminded me of one of God’s attributes that ive been standing on, that it’s never too late. we’re never too old to walk in the promises of the Father and share in His glory. 

that the Father is a restorer of time. 

i do not need to mourn my mistakes, my foolishness, my fear. 

but instead, it can be a testament to God’s power, His grace, His Mercy, His miraculous power over my life. 

what a privilege! for God to call out to me. for Christ’s intercession to reach me. for the holy trinity to continue to believe in me, for me, for the kingdom. 

how this is even a challenge is shameful. with all that ive been redeemed from. 

but it is. the world is in me deep. 

although i know better, i make excuses for my idolatry. i claim victim, choosing not to lean into the power God says He has given me. 

how dare i?

this moment has made me realize how down bad i am. 

how this moment to choose my God is easier said than done. 

and over what? i’m too embarrassed to say. 

but i know it could never compare. 

and that’s the thing. the things I put over my God could never save me. 

i cannot rely on them although sometimes i try. 

but i want both. God and the things. 

and i want the things because I know God will always be there. 

but that’s not respect. that’s not behavior of a son of God but a child. 

when you are called to put action behind your faith, what will you choose?

forgiving your enemies

i’m working hard on forgiveness of my enemies. getting to the root of why it’s a problem. battling with the feeling that people think they can bully me, belittle me, disregard my autonomy. 

and it’s because i care too much of what they think. i need to understand that i can’t control the thoughts that others have, only mine. so if people think their getting one over on me, let them. if people think they have power of me, let them. if people think they are messing with my mind and emotions, let them. lol. they can think whatever they want. 

but what i’m thinking on, i know is fact. i know that i’m covered by the blood. i know that the Father will never forsake me. i know the promises that are mine. i know Christ has redeemed me and all that is His is mine. i know the impact of the enemy is temporary. i also know someone so small minded to let their will be controlled by evil could never stop all that God has for me. 

i also know that my battle isn’t with people who choose to be small and weak, but with the powers and principalities i can’t see. i know that true freedom comes from surrender to Christ in all things, including having love for your enemies. and i know my biggest flex is the redemption Christ has granted me & how that continues to be visible in my life. that i don’t look like what i’ve been through, and the sauce that i have cannot be taken. 

no lie, it’s hard living under attack from the enemy, but with Christ it’s much easier. so i forgive those who give in to less than. those who attack me because their controlled by fear, envy, and cowardice. in the moment, under attack, i forgive them, pray for them, wish them the best. because any enemy of mine is an enemy of God’s.

reminder to not be offended.

currently, i'm thinking about so many things so deeply. 

the new daredevil is on and i'm itching to spill about it on spill. i also have a second round of left overs i'm considering even though it's way past my eating time. but it's saturday. :) 

also, i'm on a shopping fast but my sister is sending me some fire fashions. also, i'm drinking wine. which is out of the ordinary but not so much on the weekends. 

but i knew i wanted to write. really write. 
i have my laptop on my lap sitting on my comfy bed fully indulged in this moment. 

and i have a topic. one that was already pre-destined. my spiritual tribe knew that i would be sitting here. that at this time i would have the topic that i would have. one related to offense. 

offended that my character is often tried and my ability not only questioned but my inability too many times assumed. the systems of the world that seep into our environments at work, in our relationships at home are built to offend. especially for those who prosper despite of evil with the help of heaven. so one could say, i should expect attempts to offend. 

but what drove me here to this blog, to my laptop, was the hurt and heaviness of those attempts, both intentionally and unintentionally. because the questioning of my character by the world, the twisted questions and statements of the enemy served by those with access to me, sometimes have me questioning myself. and this isn't new. since i was an adolescent, i've questioned me. 

my ability to perform. my ability to trust myself. my ability to have faith, to hear God, to do the right thing. my ability to stand up for myself. my ability to be creative, to be smart, to be stylish, to be wanted, to be beautiful, to have fun. lol. and i would sink into this pools of despair full of hypotheticals. and then eventually grow tired of the redundancy of self-pity and choose to perform anyway. only to be met with confirmation that i am exactly who God created me to be at that time. and that He was and is always with me. and He has pre-destined me to live the life the Spirit leads me. 

and that is why offense should have no power. 

because in Christ, i am settled. my life, my purpose, they are settled. 
my success is settled. my fulfillment is settled. 
i do not have to see my life through the lens of men and the systems of this world. 
and i can rest in my decisions and the truth that regardless, God has worked all things out for my God. 

because Christ is my purpose and my identity. that could never come into question. 
and as long as i do the work to keep my spirit aligned in Him, offense can never reach me let alone overpower me. 

when i read John Bevere’s book, The Bait of Satan, I took notes. I highlighted and made comments. I'm going to go over them again because I need a reminder. 

this declaration from my last post is so fitting;

Father, I will not allow an unpleasant response from others to deter  from Your truth. I do not want to abandon the flow of the Spirit for the desires of men.