God prevailed me 🌈

i have been transformed. 

when i look back at 2025 i'm so grateful. 
i fall on my knees to thank God for bringing me through. 
i have a heart full of gratitude,
but if you saw my 2025, you would wonder why. lol. 

from beginning to end, chaos. 
things that could go wrong, did. 
breaks that could have helped, didn't come. lol. 
but all in all, the Lord sustained me. 

and let me tell you. 
He didn't just sustain me, 
He held me close. 
He fueled my peace and joy, so that regardless of my circumstances, 
i knew the Trinity was with me and within me. 

i knew that my circumstances would not kill me, 
although at times they felt like they would. 
i was able to enjoy my life, even though it seemed liked attacks were endless. 
financial attacks, physical attacks, emotional and mental attacks. fear tried to overcome me. distress tried to overcome me. life wanted me to give in and give up. 

but God prevailed me. 
i remained content in every season. 
i embraced the lesson, eventually, and came out better than when i went in. 

i'm believing for continued sustainment in 2026. 
i'm believing for the manifestation for the desires in my heart. 
i'm believing for the wisdom to receive God's blessings in His glory. 
i'm believing for the words to express my gratitude, 
to yell my testimony to the world. 
to bring others back into the family of Christ where they belong. 
i'm believing for restoration. to be used as a restorer for the Kingdom. 

i'm believing that my family and our lives
are living testimonies of God's grace, His mercy and His love. 

God ended this year by opening new doors for me. 
I believe that will continue in 2026. 
i'm so sure of it. 

as always, to God be all the glory, all the power, all the honor and all the praise. 

where i'm at | 04.05.15

so many things.
so many things happening inside of my little body;
...my expansive mind, my active spirit, God's Spirit,
all of those feelings & the emotions that follow.
sometimes it feels as if what's happening inside of me,
& the things happening to me,
are too big for me.
all of these battles being fought, at the same time,
...constantly having your attention & focus split,
attempting to keep yourself above water,
concerning every aspect of your life.
the only moments representing peace that you get,
are the ones you decide to make or let happen.

but it's all, not for nothing.
it is for something.
i am attempting to live on purpose,
allowing every moment to matter.
& when you choose to live,
as if God is your salvation,
your peace, your well-being, your success...
moments attempting to promote rejection & oppression will happen.

so i'm in the midst of a journey.
transitioning from one point to a further one.
going up. :)
if you could see the insides of me,
they would look as they always look,
a good work in progress.

before the comeback.

knowing that you could do,
if God came down and personally asked you to,
is not enough!
do it because you should. the opportunity is always arising.
for you to prove your faith. take it.

don't want to be treated like a child.
but prove you can be an adult.
remember this day, so that you make walk in the release,
of this curse active on you.

big day.
gave into one, while denying another.
help is needed. sometimes more than what you can conjure up.
sometimes what God allows other people to conjure up on your behalf.
that happened to me today.
someone helped God save me. Thank God for her, :)

forgive me. for while I am steady growing.
sometimes, i am steady effing up.
but you know... then i remembered this; Letter 30: your reflection
& refused to cease and desist.

but believe in something bigger than right now.
sowing thoughts of success, because i was born to win.

(excuse the cheesiness!
my vulnerability causes me to be corny!)

<3 comeback queen

Day 30 - Letter: your reflection

...when i talk to myself,
there is more than just me.
the spirit within me is alive
& through him protrudes the Word of God.
Effect via the Divine Cause :)

my new members balloon from church :)

Letter 30 - Your Reflection.

'who are you now? what direction is your heart leading you?
better question?
what is it you desire?
where do you want your heart to be?
what is your destination?
& what path do you wish to take?

you always have a choice,
but not without a fight.
This is a mandatory war & strategy is required for survival.
where shall your help come from? have you found a better supplier?

your not new to this fight, but your perception has changed.
the enemy has been revealed.
& while his moves cant be predicted
his attacks lack creativity.

but sometimes you forget
who your fighting for!

this is not a self-induced battle,
..one that you choose
the war is inevitable, (but you will certainly reap the rewards)
but the victory has already been taken.
Now your faith must be proven.

There is only one option,
based on the ultimate desires of your heart.
to serve the one who has placed you first.
delivered you from the schemes of the one looking to detroy you.
who's hate is based on principle, no previous beef established.

but you are all too familiar with the other side.
remember.
you use to mingle through the fence.
selling yourself for a quick fix.
forsaking the one who has given the win.

your lack of loyolty
was damaging though,
& although you will win,
you have given room for the battle
to be much more demanding.
but only for the sake of your faith.

"Stay loyal to your soil, &
I will take care of the rest.
You will slip up, but ALWAYS aim
for perfection in me.
Remind yourself, that that is your one TRUE
desire. To find perfection in My eyes.

I will forever keep you,
always forgive you
& you will stay abundantly blessed.
Walk against the odds, for it is I who set those doors
in front of you. So that it will be,
only I who makes you through.
Your success will only come through me
& you will know and prove to be an example of what I desire."
amen'