how it's working

y'all should just get used to this.
this is how it's going to be for now.
i'm committed to so many things,
& some may see that as this awful thing,
but for me, i'm pretty sure that's just life. :)
& that's okay,
but things will have to rotate priority.

i didn't create this space for the desire to promote myself,
i created it out of need.
when things get so worked up,
worked up, worked up, worked up,
& then boom.
something inevitable happens. :)
& this space helps me rationalize,
it helps restore my perspective.
that is why i have this,
or pretty much anything.
it naturally serves some purpose that helps keep me going.
& that's awesome.

but it's not scheduled.
it happens when it happens.
when there's this overflow,
or a need for discipline in myself,
or etc...

so just know when you're getting it,
you're getting something real.
& that's awesome.
God works out the rest.
for now, that's how this is working.

this isn't a game.

sometimes i forget,
that only i can do what it is that i do.

we shouldn't feel threatened by our surroundings,
our peers,
because if you're being true to you,
no one can do what it is you do...
or how you do it.
i rest in that fact.
it eliminates fear.

i rarely spend time,
thinking about survival.
...strategies to stay relevant.
because there is only so much you can do on your own.
& honestly your efforts in that, are nearly irrelevant.

i mean, what i'm saying doesn't apply to everyone,
because i'm operating with God on my side,
while others are fighting against God.
attempting to do everything themselves,
not letting God act on their behalf.

but considering the circumstances in which i'm operating under...
i feel like this becomes less of a game, 'because i could lose that'
& more like life. :)