Day 14 — time & time again... but, not this time. :)

God told me that you arent the same person anymore. & that i should start treating you that way.

trust was definitely my biggest issue.

but ive always known there was a reason my spirit picked you. something about you and jessica and how we develop over time is so similar to something that is in me.
ive never doubted your ability.
your perspective, and your will... yes.
fortunately though, that can always change.
God has destined you to be bigger then you know.
& that has always been in your character.

its just, youve never acted on it.
the devil did everything to keep you from knowing that side of you.
but, everything the devil does is temporary.
none of it is substantial enough to last forever.
and God never let go of you.
through me, he's always had his eye on you,
waiting patiently.

i didnt believe you could be helped this quickly.
but it only makes sense.
what God had given you was huge, progressive.
(which is why the devil invested so much into you)
so naturally, when you decide to look God's way,
& really indulge.
your going to move in the right direction, fast. :)

i never thought you were going to church for me.
it wouldnt have mattered, it wouldnt have worked.
but i see you indulging, intaking what you hear.
& the stuff your hearing is incredible.
i know you, so i see that.
...and your right, actions do speak loud.
& youve chosen to act on what you hear,
i see that.
& you know me, my criticism, beliefs, ideas...there all divine.
so i think of what your becoming, what your doing, very highly!
your amazing me.
your will to indulge, and to see God act on his promise,
...that even if you go towards him just a little, he will meet you more then halfway.

to anyone else, your transition might not seem like a miracle.
but i know what it really is. & God's grace is falling all over you. :)

i can say this to you, because ive chosen to step back.
and now all i see of you is the divine part.
the time we share in church.
& i know that, that is the most important part of you.
so anything else that your doing, that may not coincide with God's will,
it wont last much longer.

so i want to remind you,
that patience is a virtue.
God knows more then you.
& He made you.
so more then anyone or anything,
He knows what you need,
& He knows what you want.
& He wants those same things for you too.
if you let Him, anything God wants, He will have. :)

so ill always forgive you,
not only because im a christian,
but because life's at its best that way.
this will be a slow process,
but that allows us to marinate within it.
within God,
our relationship will only get better. :)

i love you soldier. :)
cute little tough soldier. :)

letters, letters, more letters. :)

i love letters. & i love content. im going to embark on this 30 day letter challenge. :)

& im going to post them on here, so you can seeeeeee :)

im probably going to go out of order. make my own order. depending on how they feel to me. 

(for a second i forgot that this was about me. for me. for you. but all me.) 
yeah.

WRITE A LETTER TO THESE PEOPLE :

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

Day 2 — Your Crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — 10-Year old you

Day 9 —Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but are too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

decorated veteran.

whatever in God's will, i want for me.

he's one of my soul mates too. the witt he comes up with to ideally describe something. so diverse. so classy. mmmmm.... :) timeless.
-spitta nigguh, yeaah.

....and to think. this is just plus fuel. ha, smh.

...words of God

something so divine about all of this.
& i love it. absolutely.
the shit is better then magic.
its like i can live this dream, connected to this higher power,
who somehow has it all laid out for me.
and provides impenetrable heavenly help.

no wonder.
lord of the rings.
the golden compass.
etc.

i mean. this divine entity, God, who knows me better than myself.
uhh, wow.
like, really take a moment and try to wrap your head around the reality of God.
(here he is, up to all good.)

well, im going to law school.
and i need to get a mammogram.
or dominique.

im expanding something.
while creating another.
with a God surrounding me.
& the ideal monster next to me.

things are always changing.
always for the better.

but with that comes huge responsibility.
but full of love. pleasure in spreading faith. :)

youve been a witness to something so many will miss out on. amen for that.
be thankful for your position. grow into it.

...p.s..i couldnt have done this better myself.

remind yourself

unless you minimize the exposure & recognize the fuckery immediately, a situation can turn into six. options are bent, and realities screwed, and one outlook suddenly becomes six. (exhibit a)

whether your shit is legit or not, people are gonnah talk shit. inputs are going to be suggested. & your stand on the play becomes immobile. she says she always does what she wants. but really, she's doing what she thinks other people would do. & i say think, because other people are simply doing shit they think other people are doing too.

why should i waste my time attempting to convince you that im legit. & why should i have to devote time to attempting to relay that. im that way all the time. everybody's human. so eventually youll recognize my being if its something similar to whats already in you. & then there's the rest. & thats who, 'i dont give a fuck' is for.

i say untraditional, because frontin has become the populist view. & my untraditional take on life is only shared by the bosses. yes. i can live with that. i will sacrifice the acceptance of minimalist, for the sake of something grand.

for example. check exhibit a. :)

well currently. thats my ride. & my pastor spent a little extra time on me yesterday !! amen. :)