kingdom thoughts

i had this revelation at work that my mind couldn't figure out.
And while my desire is to always obey God,
I had a hard time determining his truth at that moment.
And then He spoke to me through words and revealed a vital truth.
The heart of you is your Spirit.
Your essential rootand being is in the part of you that resembles God,
the breath that he blew into you.
& sometimes your mind won't be able to comprehend this,
& our experience is unfamiliar.
we walk on faith,
the faith in the ultimate, conquering, prosperous Love God has for us.
aaaahhhhhhh!


"this is always how the enemey always pursues you. 
 manipulates my word to you, and condems you. 
 attempts to seperate you with vulnerable situations in your life. 

with law school. 
with munchkin. 
with your book. 


i have expressed many times my purposes for you, 
have inspired scriptures in your heart, 
proving to you that i am a partner in your labor. 


my grace and mercy avail much. 
and much higher are my ways than yours. 
there are things you do not understand, 
this can be considered unfamiliar territory. 
will you die here? 


your logic will be the death of your faith. 
and you are fortunate that you have understood this much. 
but do not take pride in your understanding, 
take it as favor. undeserving blessing. 
so that you may humble yourself, and not count on it, 
but rely on Me."

next

so much. 

all at once. 

not only are things always changing. 

so are we, so are our feelings.

motion sickness.

you lose track of the confidence you had to conquer. 

the truth of God never changes, but our circumstances do. 

this is why God must be our foundation. 

for his intentions include our win. 

our only change within should be growth in an unmoving truth.

we adapt to our circumstances, but within Gods standards. 

always. 

God's truth versus reality. 

separate the world from your internal. 

emotions precede weakness. 

as a girl, born and raised of the world. hard is an understatement. 

complete restructuring. thuglife. 🎀 

but it rewards in complete peace. 

positions in front of open doors.

and more doors, & more doors. 

doors we walk through. leaving some place for another.

we spend time building keys.

that open doors.

because our aim is always forward.

this consistent fear i have, 

masked with insecurity is ever returning. 

i can figure it out, but i can't escape it. 

it's this inevitable hold that's making my journey take 40 years.

sacrifice is the only thing that will conquer it.

denial of our deepest temptations. 

one by one we have been approaching them,

one by one, we defeat them. 

but this one, years in the making, 

& i have fed it enough, it consumes me. 

I'll lock it up, but I've never thrown away the key.

& it's root is attached to so many other flaws, 

so many other obstacles.

kill this one, kill them all. 

i don't even know how to begin the approach.

can't even fathom the victory; not willingly at least.

but it's inevitable. it's in my forward.n

it's another key.

completely manufactured from our willingness to endure.

keys open doors.

to the end

thuglife. 

a relentlessness. 

to stand steadfast in the belief that youre made for a big purpose. 

that youre irriplacable, made with worth. 

that while you live, you live to learn.

seeking  growth, reaching for perfection.

fearless. 

adapting to change, developing in success. 

showing strength in love, 

stronger than violence. 

our actions represent our charachter. 

classy composure. 

quick to give, 

humbled by serving. 

acknowledging the glory of our creator.

the power set in us. 

to conquer and reign. 

you can keep the fame.

#tweegram

taking the win!

essentially it's the war we're in. how faithful of a soldier will you be? He provides the armor. He guarantees the win. and we forget, that that is the only way. what do you want from life? being realistic about ups & downs. because you will have them. & with out understanding of the war you're in, your downs will out weigh your wins. you can't have your perverse way, your imperfect way, because you cannot save yourself by yourself. when we fall, the hope of God tugs on our will, & nudges at our feet. the will to live in God's Glory outweighs the temptation of the flesh. we're a spirit. why do we act so simple. 0_0 we demean ourselves constantly. falling far below the amazing power of God in us. and we go the long way around the bush, instead of looking inside. and closing the windows of the world, so you can hear your inside speak. we need focus, concentration, will & belief. simple minded creatures we act like. thinking you are far above confusion. not knowing what fasting brings. you will not hear or see God, if your still listening to the world. not taking anything away from you, but are actions are fueled more than 50% by our subconscious. so even when you think you're not following, or you're not consumed by, you are. you are what you eat. you are what you watch. & you are what you hear. what do you see & watch the most? & God does not compete. these things take away from our glory. they give us thoughts that do not sow righteousness. they make us ignorant of the power of our tounge. Faith is a law. the most sincere, fair & fulfilling law ever. it is for you. from your God. to learn, to study, to be all the way in it. created for you to win.